RANTS
9/7/24: uh okay so im like super new to this and i honestly dont know what im doing.. im pretty sure i ae this the wong kinda uh website thingy but thats okay lololol... im gonna like figure it out a i go i js kinda hope i dont give up on it so soon.. thats kinda a habit of mine lololollll. ill figure it our soon enough.
ACK YAY I GOT ITTTTTT WOWOWOWOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i need to learn how to change the color of my uh website lol.. can i use like emojis on this?
oh my god im like crazy cool........
jesus ive like actually done so much of this in one day.. im guite impressed w myself
omg OMGGGGG i figured out how to change the bg colorrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so exiteddddd (thank you brother)
9/8/24:uh so i didnt do much on the website today but thats alr. today me and jeane were gonna hangout so my stepdad gave me my grandpas old computer! its a little slow but its pretty nice to just have one so its okay. its also not even the worst ive seen so whatever lololololll.. me and jeane didnt end up hanging out but thats cool. we can hang out like any other time and im js kinda happy to be hanging out w ppl again. i dont rlly leave my house..........
9/9/24: bruh i wanna go home.. i hate this fucking school. i dont even need this shit. i taught myself goddamn (basic) coding in like less than 2 days. like bruh anything you can teach me here i can do it myself.... also the ppl here fucking such ass...... like bruh no i dont wanna hear the loud ass speaker you brought from home so you can play it loud as hell in the halways. ALSO FOR WHAT? why do you even need that... js get headphones or earbuds bruh.. and he had them last year. istg i hate everyone at this god forsaken high school......
5/29/25: erm so happy new year and all lol... so im back fussing with this website AND I NEED TO LEARN BORDERS AND STUFFFFFF~ they just look so clean and nice and partion of things so wellllll. ill work on that lol alsoo i feel like i need to start highlighting the text r smth, witht the new bgs you can really see the text T-T.. i feel like ive grown a little like i know more about coding now even if im not any better: like it makes way more sense nowwww!!!!
8/23/25: monday is the first day of school and i want to die. i hate school.theyre banning phones and headphones so thsts nice... they fucked up all my classes and gave me choir again (wtf) EVEN THO I ASKED THEM NOT TO AND AND AND MY FUCKING PASSWORD TO MY GMAIL HAS BEEN RANDOMLY CHANGED BY IDEFK SO I CANT EMAIL THEM ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTT. if i have to go to choir on monday oh my god. ILL FUCKING KILL MYSELF ANF THEN MY STUPID FUCKINH COUNSOLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also this summer sucked. it felt way to fast and i was forced on two vacations that both sucked so bad i wish i had just stayed home. i want to die.
its crazy how i yearn for times when i was even unhappier
8/24/25: TOMORROWS RHE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IM ACTUALLY GONNA KMS THIS IS NOT A JOKEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUCKCCKCKCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! in better news,, i have a big fat crush but its probably a bad idea... he kinda fucked up but its online so idk.. im also not tht into online dating but heres what im thinking, i dont plan to date him forever yk??? that sounds rlly bad but idc. anyways i rlly like himmmmm, hes very cuteee, and funnyyyyy!! ANYWAYS RN IM THINKING ABOUT HOW I RLLY WANNA TALK TO HIM BUT IDK WHAT TO SAY SO IM NOT SAYING ANYTHING eek. um i also added more songs to my mp3 player so maybe i can listen to music at lunch or smth cus i think maybe ill actually kms with a full school day with zero music...... ALSO THE FUCKING COUNSELORS CANT DO THEIR FUCKING JOB I GUESS??????? so i have to go in tomorrow cus they fkn gave me choir even though im quitting. i did five years of choir and now i quit T-T.... ill miss judah, i pray he does both the play nd musical but i know deep down hes just gonna do the musical. I HOPE HE AT LEAST DOES THAT!!!!!!!!! its his senior year too IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(real thing that happened bellow!!!!)
J: so your quitting choir... wait how long have you been in choir?
E:uhhh i started in fith grade and then skipped sixth, because of covid, then did it every year since then, so five years?
J:.... uh actually your not. your not quitting choir.
(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love him)