oh my god im like crazy cool........
jesus ive like actually done so much of this in one day.. im guite impressed w myself
omg OMGGGGG i figured out how to change the bg colorrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so exiteddddd (thank you brother)
9/8/24:uh so i didnt do much on the website today but thats alr. today me and jeane were gonna hangout so my stepdad gave me my grandpas old computer! its a little slow but its pretty nice to just have one so its okay. its also not even the worst ive seen so whatever lololololll.. me and jeane didnt end up hanging out but thats cool. we can hang out like any other time and im js kinda happy to be hanging out w ppl again. i dont rlly leave my house..........
9/9/24: bruh i wanna go home.. i hate this fucking school. i dont even need this shit. i taught myself goddamn (basic) coding in like less than 2 days. like bruh anything you can teach me here i can do it myself.... also the ppl here fucking such ass...... like bruh no i dont wanna hear the loud ass speaker you brought from home so you can play it loud as hell in the halways. ALSO FOR WHAT? why do you even need that... js get headphones or earbuds bruh.. and he had them last year. istg i hate everyone at this god forsaken high school......
5/29/25: erm so happy new year and all lol... so im back fussing with this website AND I NEED TO LEARN BORDERS AND STUFFFFFF~ they just look so clean and nice and partion of things so wellllll. ill work on that lol alsoo i feel like i need to start highlighting the text r smth, witht the new bgs you can really see the text T-T.. i feel like ive grown a little like i know more about coding now even if im not any better: like it makes way more sense nowwww!!!!
8/23/25: monday is the first day of school and i want to die. i hate school.theyre banning phones and headphones so thsts nice... they fucked up all my classes and gave me choir again (wtf) EVEN THO I ASKED THEM NOT TO AND AND AND MY FUCKING PASSWORD TO MY GMAIL HAS BEEN RANDOMLY CHANGED BY IDEFK SO I CANT EMAIL THEM ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTT. if i have to go to choir on monday oh my god. ILL FUCKING KILL MYSELF ANF THEN MY STUPID FUCKINH COUNSOLER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also this summer sucked. it felt way to fast and i was forced on two vacations that both sucked so bad i wish i had just stayed home. i want to die.
its crazy how i yearn for times when i was even unhappier
8/24/25: TOMORROWS RHE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IM ACTUALLY GONNA KMS THIS IS NOT A JOKEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUCKCCKCKCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! in better news,, i have a big fat crush but its probably a bad idea... he kinda fucked up but its online so idk.. im also not tht into online dating but heres what im thinking, i dont plan to date him forever yk??? that sounds rlly bad but idc. anyways i rlly like himmmmm, hes very cuteee, and funnyyyyy!! ANYWAYS RN IM THINKING ABOUT HOW I RLLY WANNA TALK TO HIM BUT IDK WHAT TO SAY SO IM NOT SAYING ANYTHING eek. um i also added more songs to my mp3 player so maybe i can listen to music at lunch or smth cus i think maybe ill actually kms with a full school day with zero music...... ALSO THE FUCKING COUNSELORS CANT DO THEIR FUCKING JOB I GUESS??????? so i have to go in tomorrow cus they fkn gave me choir even though im quitting. i did five years of choir and now i quit T-T.... ill miss judah, i pray he does both the play nd musical but i know deep down hes just gonna do the musical. I HOPE HE AT LEAST DOES THAT!!!!!!!!! its his senior year too IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(real thing that happened bellow!!!!)
J: so your quitting choir... wait how long have you been in choir?
E:uhhh i started in fith grade and then skipped sixth, because of covid, then did it every year since then, so five years?
J:.... uh actually your not. your not quitting choir.
(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love him)
9/11/25: im rlly bored in class so now im writing an update loll.. ok so CHARLIE KIRK WAS SHOT DEAD ON A CAMPUS IN UTAH!!!!!! theres a lot of differing opinions so ill list them here
9/12/25: okay so apparently our school actually has a FREAKING SUPER SENIOR LMAAAOOOOOOO!!!! but hes like a masive weirdo, ppl said they were scared for him to know their name bc he will just say it randomly and not stop T-T.. ALSO ALSO someone said they saw him PRESSED AGAINST A WINDOW ON THE 2ND FLOOR, WATCHING THE MIDDLE SCHOOLERS PLAY OUTSIDE AT LUNCH. bro that is super villan shit no freaking way..
9/13/25: i seriously am just a punching bag huh? yesterday chantal was kinda just tearing into me, and i know i play into being stupid a lot but idkit just hurts. and everytime i try to speak up it sounds like a joke or smth to them and they just continue.. honestly i really hate them. also i really think im wayto weird for all these mf at school...like they alr call me weird and look at me strange when i talk about the stuff i rlly wanna but ive been toning it down. we have a car playlist and i they alr dont like the shit that i put on the playlist (ALL SONG I *THOUGHT* THEY WOULD LIKE) so why the hell would they like the stuff im actually into. i knew school was gonna suck but the two first weeks were fun so i thought maybe this year would actually be nice but i alr feel like shit again. same feeling as last year, i rlly just want to stop talking to them all. ormaybe ill just kms idek anymore. fuck ferndale and every shit stain asshole in that god forsaken school. im saying this but ill probably go to school on monday like nothings wrong. i wonder if i just stayed quiet, if they would notice.9/16/25: IM GONNA KMS I KEEP LOOKING AAT PPL IN THE HALLWAY AND THEN THEY LOOK AT ME BACK AND WE MAKE EYE CONTACT....BUT ITS THE SAME.FUCKING.PEOPLE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> im gonna die. im actually gonna die this time. maybe ill just swallow a whole bottle of benadryl. id rather a heart attack than making eye contact w ppl again.
9/17/15: im not going to homecoming this year bc i rlly js dont want to but like i know im gonna regret it..i mean ive alr gone twice... and im giving up on judah so it doesnt matter if hes there this time. bro anna likes judah and she doesnt know that i do (but im working on it) and so she was just talking abt himlike'oh yeahidkifilikehimmmmmmm...' as she procedes to talk abt him for like 10 mins. i knew he wasnt into me nd never probably would be soit doesnt even matter.im actually this fkn close to becoming an incel i lowkey dont care if im dating someone online. i had kinda a mental breakdown the other day and i spoke to jimbo abt it and he helped me and stuff. AND THEN HE ASKED IF IVE EVER DATED AND I WAS LIKE NO FKN SHOT URR GONNA ASK ME OUT NOw. pity hard launch 9/23/25: MF JUST WALKED INTO CLASS SAW KARI IN HIS PEACH SWEATER AND SAYS you feeling peachy? LMAAAOOO NO FUCKING WAY!!!!!!!!! ALMOST FRIDAY!!!!!!! big __ feeling peachy. also right as i waslked into class i walked into the BIGGEST cloud of pperfume.. mf did you miss your entire body and just sprayed the air??? damn bruh.. the weather is so nice today tho! while we were driving it felt like some ps2 game where the layers of the map load in while you move!! its all grey and shit i love it. its clearing up now tho im gonna kms.. i feel like a true high school student now without my headphones and stuff. i think having to use computers all the time and blogging or whaveter this is more is making me more highschool ish. i also hate everything now lol.
truth is i do hate her and shit but she doesnt need to know that. i swear to GOD if i have to go back to therapy ill kms.
meow meow meow I'm on my phoneee nyow.... what if I talk like a cat meow..? rn chantals redoing a test and I'm chilling here next to her :p
9/24/25: I hAAAATE SPANISH WHY ARE THERE SO MANY GROUP ASSIGNMENTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!! AND I DONT HAVE ANY FRRIEENDSSSSSS.... she paired me up with weston... whomst is friend with reed,,, and i dont think reed likes me too much,,, i.e. i dont think weston has a good impression of meeeeee 
I KEEP GETTING PAIRED WIT PPL I WONT WANANT TOOOO>> i got paired with emery the other day and its just awkward between us bc him and riley broke up bc she was the reason we were friends yk.. but its fine. noone has to be friends with me lolll. weston did the assignment with someone else. i think hes avoidiing me... i dont think this was worth a grade so honestly i dont care? i dont rlly wanna play tic tac to or the possibility id have to play against ms porter,,,,,
9/25/25: i am now realizing i put the wrong date on my quizz last hour,, SPEAKING OF i was done w that damn quiz so freaking fast. EASY PEASSYY BRUHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! so last night we were playing 99 nights and BRO in the middle of playing THEEEE FUCKIGN SPIDER I THOUGHT I KILLED CAME BACK FOR BLOOODDD!! a while ago i saw this massive fucking spider in my room and i THOUGHT i killed it witha book, but heres the thing i never saw its dead body so i wasnt sure. SO THE NIGHT OF I WAS TAKING A SHOWER AND I WAS LITTERALLY THINKING ABOUT THAT MF i was like what if hes not actually dead.... HE wasnt. so he litteraly just flung down on his string and i FUCKIGN SCREAMED DUDE! i was like OH DFUCK FUCK WHATT THE HELL I THOUGHT I KILLED YOU WHAAAAAAAAAAT.. FUCK AHHHH OH MY GOF. i wasnt having fun. so anyways what i ended up doing was i grabbed a book and opened it then i slammed the book in on the spider. DEAD INSTANTLY!!! i like squished it in there and stuff. no chance of survival.
so before we even started, we were in the lobby and we were all about to join in a game but cam went afk RIGHT AS WE WERE ABOUT TO GO ON so logan just started pushing him in and then we all started pushing him in and right as we got him close to the thing he got back on and walked the remaining 2 blocks. he was like BRUH U GUYS ARE SO ANNOYING WTFFFFF........ it was rlly funny i got screenshots. also we only made it to like 50 or 60 nights because logan and cam kept dying and we had to use like 5 fucking bandages in the first 30 mins LIKE BRUHHHH.. then logan got off cus he kept dying and his leg hurt or smth. THEN ana got off cus her wifi was buns,,,, then maddie got off the game cus we both died and she didnt think cam would be able to get any bandages for us, then i got off and got on cool obby lol..
9/26/25: i hear so much bullshit everyday i feel like im having a stroke,, max talking about if his kid grew up to like fat furry porn or smth he would just kill the kid, id do the same, all the autistic kids rambing their nonesense, being high and not understanding anything doesnt help. im so glad casas in the afternoon bc thats when i start to meowwwww nyaaaaaaaaaaaa im a cattttttt.,, anywho....OH I KILLED THIS MASSIVE SILVERFISH IN MY ROOM HRAHHHHHHHHHH im master of killing bugs 
dude miss porter is a fuking joke,,,she sounded like butters mom, caaaaaaaalmmm caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalmmmm,,,, like that one scene where his mom is like must painttt everything clean must painnnttt,, thats her.
9/29/25: ok i just realized this but why the fuck are the kids, who dont care about school and who always misbehave, THE KIDS WITH LIKE PERFECT ATTENDANCE??????? mf these kids do not care about school at and and as a whole make school a much worse place,, chat why arent we skipping? like did people just stop skipping? oh also this week is our spirit week and we got some buns themes bruh. today is mismatch day and pretty much no one did it but while me and chantal were walking to class we saw judah in fucking jeans with NEON blue gym shorts over them T-T... me and her were just like oh! uhhhh.. and then he walked away.... i forgot it was mismatch day so untill now i fr just thought he was wearing that shit. bro got that shit on.
mrs porter is not real. sje just gave us this asignment to make a superhero is spanish. along with a villan and side kick. bro easiest fucking assignment ever! idek if i have to draw smth but bro i make charaters all the flipping time heh..
10/1/25: MF TEACHERS GOTTA STOP ASKING ME WHAT MUSIC I LIKE!!!!!!!! I DONT LIKE COOL ALTERNATIVE STUFF I LIKE SCREAMING ASIAN BOYS 
he was asking what kind of music i like cus its fucking emo day and hes playing emo rock music and stuff AND I KNOW HES JUST TRYING TO START CONVERSATION BUT NOT WITH ME BRUUUU GET OUT OF HEREEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also its october now hurray!! hbd eric.. i saw this massive spider in my room again. it was totally a different one but THEY JUST KEEP ON COMING BRUHHH!!! eddie is like seriously arachniphobic so there were times he just wouldnt sleep in his room and would just sleep in the basement area AND IM GETTING IT NOW.. like i feel like my room wasnt even that dirty when they started appearing
10/2/25: imsofuckingcold
10/3/25: lol in third hour i keep looking at daverick cus its funny and today he got up and went to my desk and was like what ur problem lol. LMAAAOOOOO WHILE I WAS TALKING TO MS SHOCK 
i was just like what do you mean? i dont have a problem? and he was like why do you keep looking at me? wdym im not looking at you. i never look at you. IM NOT EVEN GOOD WITH IT BUT I LOVE TROLLING BRU
lol so today was the pep rally for hoco but me and chantal didnt go so maia, anna and allison just dropped us off pretty early. so we walk in th building and we see aiken oing work on a table in the hallway (we got there so early a?class was still in session so we just had to wait) and we sat down in the hallway somewhere near him and me and chantal were just sitting there... AAND SHE THREW COINS AT HIM 
she threw a lot of coins and some fell down the stairwell lol.. there were coins everywhere. today was a good trolling day.
10/6/25: we have to write stupid fuckign memoirs in ela rn and im gonna kms its so stewpid... i cannot think of a single life event that has changed me and the only thing i can think of is sad shit that i will never want to write about esspecially not in school. KYS MR PAGONAS AND MRS SHARRRRRRRRRPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!
10/13/25: so today i stared at myself in the mirror for 6 minutes trying not to vomit after brushing my teeth. fucking wild. my stomach stil hurts and im partialy wondering if lying about being sick actually fucked me up. and ofc i have the loudest fucking keyboard again... well anyways i watched kevin spencer all weekend THAT SHOW IS SO FREAKING FUNNY!!!!! my stomach hurts so bad fuck. i should have taken a zofran before i went to school im gonna kms. i was trying to figure out how to add mp3 players to neocities cus i thought it would be cool to be able to have my own little library esspecialy bc yt isnt cutting it and apparently spotify sucks so bad but i couldnt fidure it our so uh nevermind...
me and selena are going to go to a thrift store after school to look for pants for my halloween costume, im gonna be saiki so i need his green pants. selenas gonna be aoi from tbhk (girl aoi) or at least she said she would so maybe while were there we could look for a dress for her. idk if were gonna trick or treat but selena said she wanted to so maybe. IF WE ARE THO ITS GOTTA BE IN A DIFFRENT AREA. i have no idea how my area is for trick or treating. last year sucked so im honestly hoping for smth good this year. saw a tiktok that was like i can sense an october canonical moment happening and NOOOO THANK YOU. I WANT NONE OF IT!!!!!!!!! last halloween i went home early and cried. i actually want to have fun this year or maybe ill just kill myself 
10/20/25/: god i want shitty 5 minute rice so bad. used to have it with soft boiled eggs, kimchi, pickled carrots. BRU I COUDL EVEN MAKE it BEtter NOW.. i fr gotta bring back recepies so i can put that shit in there with the chicken broth and everything FUCK I SHOULD HAVE MADE TAHT FOR DINNER LAST NIGHT IM GONNA KMS!!!!!!!!!!
10/27/25/:tweaking rn. your cool.,